Language

Firstly, I want to acknowledge Jeff Carreira, whose eight month “Intensive” ended with a four day retreat last weekend (June 7-12). My book was an “articulation project”, which each participant created in some form. Writing it, and presenting it at the retreat, has left me with an experience of a deep emptiness. At this point Becoming’s urgency, at least as I had encountered its most intense aspects, has vanished from my experiential environment.

On the last day of the retreat, Jeff had us go for a “saunter” (R.W. Emerson style) with a partner and share the history of our spiritual path. One thing I’d forgotten in my reporting, but came at the end of the walk, was that at times when I was very young I often felt like I was at the bottom of a vortex of energy, much like water going down a drain. It seemed inescapable, as that intense flow was driving “me” downward.  The experience was what I would describe as depression. On occasion, however, I’d drop into a deep silence. I was safe there, but the world always called me out of that space – for dinner, chores or just the noise of parents and 5 siblings – and the doorway out of that space led me back through the depression energy.

When sharing this with my partner, what came to me was that I felt very much in tune with that silent space and that the energy of wanting to be a recluse, which has been growing very intense over the last 6 months or so, was the call to go “home” to that silence. My retirement is approaching and represents a time that I could actually do that for the first time in my life and I can remain there if I so choose, though I was not conscious this connection. What came up in thought form was “I want to go home”. It brought me to tears both the moment that I saw it, and when I shared it with the group shortly thereafter. What is most curious now is that the intensity of the pull to be a recluse disappeared for a time. I am having sensings of it, now and then, since the weekend but the cognitive understanding of the link quickly releases its gravitational pull.

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I did the “est Training” in the summer of 1975 and participated in their programs (now Landmark Education) on and off for decades. Though these programs have enriched my life beyond description, for this moment, I just want to present an idea that I got there.

In one course that I did, the leader stated, “without language reality doesn’t exist”. I loved the feel of that since my frequency soup is, in its essence, experienced without words. I called my father to talk to him about what I’d seen in the course. The way that I phrased this point to him was, “I learned how much language has to do with the way that I see the world”. His response, verbatim, was “Well of course, without language reality doesn’t exist. I wrote a paper on that once, would you like to read it?” Uhhhh, yeah. Just seeing him as my dad, I’d forgotten that he was a linguist.

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